These plaguing, besetting thoughts and feelings. One is envy. Someone in the church is promoted, is made much of, this eats at you. Why is this particular person so prominent among us all? This eats. Feelings of envy that won’t leave you. They keep on besetting us, it generates evil thinking, evil speaking. Evil thinking, the person or the people in the church or family, we know what is expected but they are not behaving themselves according to the high standards. They are behaving questionably and I can’t get it out of my thoughts. These evil things that I think pertain to different people. I can’t get it out of my thoughts. Then when I am together with friends, relatives and church members, I can’t stop. I have to gossip. It’s so much part of the system.